LIfe

OK well, To better understand what I am Blogging about I am going to give you some back round info. My whole life I grew up a pretty typical childhood no major problems. It it hit me like a bullet....When my mom dropped the bomb that my parents were getting divorced it was official their were no second chances turning back or maybes. I just had to suck it up and deal with it. It happened fast and sudden my mom broke the news to me in an applebee's restaurant over a oriental chicken salad. At first I was kinda in a shock a disbelief kinda a this isn't happening to me. After 3 long months of fights and hard decisions it was over. That was it the end of 17 years of marriage. It was pretty much my fault of how much information I knew because I overheard alot of convo's that I prob shouldn't of heard. That was it I heard the conversation that changed my life,my mom was on the phone with her friend and I heard her say it was over I immediately ran to the computer and looked for every bible verse I could find on divorce I got Pastor Doug's messages ran into my room and listened to them , I thought how could this be happening. I felt a sudden guilt knowing that I had 4 more years of them "together" then Robert.Rob took it pretty hard he didn't show it, but I could tell he immediately took to my moms side and stuck to it. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't take sides. Soon after that they was lots of fighting issues and debates. The only way I got through it was going to church and having Ben and Marissa in my life they are my neighbors and our their 24/7. They are a m a z i n g. Without them I wouldn't be who I am today. Anyway, the News was made public and things only went downhill from their. Their were various fights about the house, money, kids everything that you could fight about was brought up. The divorce moved rather fast because my mom works at a lawyers office so she would basically go to work and work on her divorce to. My dad lived with us during the whole divorce process. Which made it hard because obviously they weren't getting along so most of the time I would either be in my room or across the street at Ben and Marissa's. Shortly, after that my dad found a place and he started moving out during this my dad lost his 3rd job in 6 months . Currently he lives in Eustis and is still unemployed. The divorce was finalized and completed in March. I thought the problems would end. I was wrong... My dad hates paying child support and they still fight it's not as bad since they aren't living together. Currently, my mom still works at the lawyers office and is supposedly the happiest she's ever been. She is into the whole "Party Scene" And that's the most I can get into on that subject. It doesn't work out too great because of my busy schedule but I try my hardest to make it work. I pretty much care for Robert but it's hard. He's not the easiest to care for. It's not all on me because we are probably at Marissa's house more than our own. And it's made a BIG difference its great and super convenient It works out pretty good because that's the only way we are actually able to get to church though them so, that's what we do. Every Sunday, Thursday and Monday(Celebrate Recovery) I receive a ride from the Smith's. I am so glad I met them and they are in my life. Well that's where I am now it gets pretty hectic with school and trying to keep my grades up. Algebra is horrible and waking up at 5 to catch my bus at 6 stinks! I will try to keep this blog up to date but it will prob be hard since I don't have working interenet and blogging this from Lexie's house.
Signing off,
Ray